This Girl

The light of the sun dancing across her face. She looks so peaceful like nothing in this world could touch her. But the reality is that this girl is being ripped apart hurting so bad, wanting to be released but she can't be seen.

She is losing hope, losing the dream that she once had in her little heart, and now all she sees is death, hatred and  pain running through her veins. Running towards the door but being pulled back into the nothingness. Why is this little girl alone?? Why is she dying? Where is the hope she had? 

Look at her eyes and see all she had is lost and all she ever wanted is slowly just fading away. 

Crying only not to be heard, she said that she needs time alone, but what we don't know is that she'll never be the same. Her sweet smiling eyes are lost.

Tonight we'll walk towards death's greatest intensity the end is so near you could almost taste its poison.

Lying alone in the room where it all began. Have you seen her lately?? She is no more than the tears she is crying. Listen to her heart beat- slow and painful- 

Take her hand and walk with her the empty path, she is looking at you asking for your help.

Not knowing which way to turn she is trapped. Why are you turning away? What has she done ? Are you seeing it? Are you seeing it fade?

No more... She can't even feel it anymore, her heart breaking like shattered glass. Those tears she cries is like the sweet sense of heaven, but its not. Now they are asking who is this girl? Where is the one we know? 

Now no one even looking for her anymore. Is she dreaming? Does she still have a dream in her heart? No, because there is no heart, now nothing can help her anymore, but why? Where did all of tis begin? she was a happy little girl and now she is like death itself.

You can try and see her soul through her eyes but she hides it too well. The only time you can see her pain is when she sleeps. It may look peaceful but the pain grips your heart. She doesn't want you to feel sorry for her  because she can do it on her own, she thinks she can but she can't because she is tired of  fighting. 

Now... Once again who is this girl? 

This girl is me

(Wrote it a while ago, was going trough bad stuff but I've grown. I want to tell you there is hope out there, keep believing and keep holding on!)

Love MoniqueKIE

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You are Worthy

'You can't possibly think its real do you??' Words that was spoken to me by someone I called a father, by someone who was supposed to look after me who was supposed to protect me from all the bad people and the bad things of life!

Let me explain, those words were a reply to me telling my 'dad' that he is supposed to love me and what he is doing is wrong, to this day these 8 words haunt me, because at a young age he made me believe I was worth nothing, especially not his so called love! And I always believed him, I always thought that I am not worth being loved by anybody.

Its a sad case I think that so many people believe this! And if you are one of those people who believed this your entire life its one big lie and you are worth so much! Your worth in actual fact cannot be measured by gold or silver or even platinum! You were given to parents for a short while by God so that you can be a blessing to other people not just them! You were entrusted into their arms and they were supposed to treasure you!
Only remember this: YOU ARE WORTHY IF IT WAS NEVER SAID TO YOU I WANT YOU TO KNOW, GRIP AND UNDERSTAND THIS FACT BECAUSE NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT!!

a loving thought
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Love that found me

Love is something we all take for granted! we don't see the value of it. Its like we are blind to the fact that without love you and I will never survive life!

I am so happy and so privileged to be able to say that I am loved by so many people! I have people who care so much about me, but this is not about the love one brother has for another! This is about the love that a man has for a woman!

I am seen as a beautiful young woman by the guy I call my boyfriend (Bjorn<many things will be said about him>)  he treats me like a princess like even though I use to be a (what people of this world call) "bad" person. He does not see my faults like everyone else does!

It truly gives me hope for the future and for what is a head of us! He is the one that can make me feel better when I think that this world is just one huge ass messed up place and I (the use to be messed up one) have a place in it! I can make a difference and he makes me believe in myself and what i am capable of!!

I want to tell all of you ladies out there that if you are looking for a man look for one like this! (not mine he is taken) and treasure what you have believe me it only comes around once in a lifetime, to give you the once in a lifetime experience!

Peace !
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Be wise and verbalize!!

We all have a fear, some ridiculous and others a bit more understandable!
I've found that most people are afraid of people! We all have been in the situation where you feel threatened by someone, either they were older than you or they made you feel like they were superior to you and you are something the cat just dragged in!

This fear of people leads to us being afraid of saying what we feel, thus we all think that we cannot verbalize our feelings so we simply keep them to ourselves!

I remember as a young child I never use to say when I was feeling sad, 'cause I thought it was being bad or that I will get into trouble for saying something that was not in check with my parents (or made them seem like bad parents). I was so afraid of telling them how I feel that when something did push me to the edge I would over exaggerate and do things that made the smallest situation worse, as you can imagine my parents were completely confused as to think how the hell i got to such a complete outburst of rage! And so later on I came to realize that the sadness I never got to express turned into rage and that got me into even more trouble!

I want to inspire you
So all I am trying to say is that you have the right to verbalize your feeling of sadness!

Peace to you!